Sunday, December 6, 2009 @
5:34 PM
today go out with mandy, nicole and my sis to watch movie 2012. wow! that show nice man :x after the show, mandy and nicole went to toilet to take out their lens.
haish.. afterwards, I WAS IN A SUPER DUPER BAD MOOD! I HATE THIS KIND OF FEELINGS!!! I HATE IT! I HATE IT! HATE IT! I KEEP QUIET SO MANY TIMES, YET NO ONE KNOWS. NO ONE KNOW WHAT I'M THINKING. FEEL LIKE THROWING MY PC, EVRYTHING SURROUNDED ME! MANDY AND NICOLE KEEP TALKING AMONG THEMSELVES, LEFT ME AND MY SIS BEHIND ALONE. THEY NOT EVEN TURNING BACK AND TALK TO US! IS IT BECAUSE YOU GUYS HAVE THE COMMON HOBBEIS OR WHATEVER, YOUR CAN LEFT ME ALONE? IS IT BECAUSE I NOT REALLY HAVE THE SAME INTEREST LIKE YOU GUYS, YOUR LEFT ME ALONE? OR... EVEN I HAVE SAME INTEREST LIKE YOU GUYS, BUT I NOT THAT HYPER, WANTS TO LEFT ME ALONE? EVEN I ANGRY, SCREAMED AT THEM, THEY ALSO DON'T CARE! I HATE OUTING WITH THEM! I DON'T LIKE IT! IF U WERE ME, LEFT OUT ALONE, NO ONE WANTS TO BOTHER YOU, CARES YOU, EVEN YOU TRY TO TALKED TO THEM, THEY ALSO DON'T CARE, WOULD YOU FEEL HAPPY? I TELL YOU, YOU WILL FEEL LIKE SCREAMING AT THEM, CRY OUT LOUD OR WHATEVER YOU CAN DO TO RELEASE YOUR ANGER! THIS IS WHAT FEELING RIGHT NOW, RIGHT HERE!!!!! even though i used to it, BUT I'M A HUMAN BEING, I ALSO HAVE FEELINGS TOO! now i know my sis's feeling when she was being left out LIKE THIS! YOU GUYS TELL ME! TELL ME WHAT SHOULD I DO SO THAT I CAN DON'T NEED TO LEFT OUT? TELL ME! TELL ME! QUICK! I WANTS TO KNOW THE ANSWER! TELL ME! TELL ME NOW! WHAT SHOULD I DO? YOU GUYS MAY THINKS I'M CRAZY BUT THIS IS MY FEELINGS. SINCE YOU TWO BECAME SO CLOSE, I ALWAYS BEING LEFT OUT. WHEN EVER I BEING LEFT OUT YOU LIKE TO SAY ME I EMO AGAIN BUT I'M NOT, IS I HAVE NO ONE TO TALK WITH! WHAT HAVE I DONE? IS THIS MY SIN? EVEN IN SCHOOL, EVEN IN A CLASS, EVEN GO OUT WITH FRIENDS, I WILL ALWAYS BEING LEFT OUT! IS THIS A FATE THAT ME AND MY SIS HAVE TO GO? Is not we don't want to talk, is we DOESN'T KNOW WHAT ARE TALKING ABT? if this continues, i think i will going to mental breakdown! going to be crazy OR going to have a mental problem soon. maybe someday, i doesn't know who are you. how i wish... i could lost all my memory, restart everything that i have now.
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